Sunday, 25 November 2012

Memories Gone By

I still feel the cold from that night
Seeing the marks left on my body
I tried with all my might
Not to show it, for anyone not to see
Yet it was inevitable that someone one day
For them to reappear 
Would notice the soul that lost its way
Full of pain, full of fear
And you couldn't protect me, 
I was too far from you to hear
And you were too far to see
That you were the one bringing the biggest fear
I would have forever been in your shadow, 
Being pushing you to greatness, 
Sacrifice more you could ever know 
So long as your life was out of the mess, 
I was there, I saw your worst, your best
I witnessed your words, your heart
I sat in the middle of your literary fest
Yet while always close by eternally apart
This eats up at me, always, always, 
I'd have smiled in your shadow
So long as there was light in your days, 
I would tried all for the sake of you to know
That I would, I will be there never far behind
Always, always, where I can watch over you
If you no longer are in my life, you are in my mind
Until this life has run it's path through...
If only, just if only we both walked on the same road
Understood each other's ways better, 
If only you saw me with a view that was broad, 
You'd have noticed within me the monster, 
Maybe it would have been avoided
But this word means nothing 
It is the master of where I'm headed
And you on that path I cannot be taking....

Laurence Ramos
November, 25th. 2012

The Poet Young-3

The mornings hold nothing new
Just old memories of you
The poet, the friend
The one I thought could understand
Somewhere in my despair 
I lost track, let you fly off in the air
But the piano keeps on playing
All the while I am waiting
For the moment you will remember
That in me you have a friend forever
That life will never go far by
Without you wondering why
I act in such a way
Every time I take a turn these days
Maybe one day you will miss this friendship
Maybe upon my craziness again will you trip
Until then I must move on some way
Waiting patiently for that day
In the meantime look after yourself well
On this I shall no longer dwell
Inside, I will smile at you
Even if the outside one is hardly ever true
Because you were the light in my darkness
The path, the way out of my mental mess
So goodbye for now and be strong
Do not let life tarnish the hope of the Poet Young
For he will one day shine for someone else better
And then maybe you will see what lays beneath the layer
Of craziness and anger, the wild child you took under your wing
But this no longer yours to worry, yours for understanding

Laurence Ramos
November, 25. 2012

Saturday, 24 November 2012


I'd smile for a thousand years
If you were to push away my fears, 
Contentment, joy and happiness
I would bring to chase the mess
That life threw at you, at me
I would walk each mile to see you happy
Robbing night of its darkness infinite
So the moon could shine upon the tarnished granite
Of the street you walk upon at night
I would be your guide when you lose sight
You would be my inspiration to all I write
I would hide the pain from my heart 
Just so from you I never have to be apart
I would do so much to ensure another beginning
Keep quiet when I lack the understanding
stay away a little to allow you to recover 
N'importe quoi pour assurer ton bonheur....
But all this, this is a dream, it won't be true
Yet if only you looked, if you knew
Yet I am condemned to being here alone
In this silence, because of what I have done
And it hurts me more than arguments and fights
It extinguished that little light
It killed the hope that I nurtured within
Yet I cannot begin realising 
That you were so close, so so close to me
Yet you saw nothing, little did you see...

Laurence Ramos
November, 24th. 2012

Now I Cannot Lie

I was so confused and now I cannot lie
Because I have just realised why
But for all the words written in poetry
Expressing any of it wouldn't release me
From the bond, the link, the chain
That tightens around me, increasing the pain....
I can't live in this silence, yet I cannot tell you
So I'll accept this with a patience anew
The corridors of my nights lost their light
My demons have all won their fights
I stay there, in my bed staring at the ceiling
Not because I have to because of a memory teasing
It all swirls in my head so strong so fast,
From a time not so far past
Words exchanged at a time seemingly slow
When of all of this I blissfully didn't know
But now I wake up with my mind and heart tight
Of where all this was going I lost sight
And there's not much else to really say
Fuck this! I lost you and I lost my way.

Laurence Ramos
November, 24th. 2012

Saturday, 17 November 2012

An August Morning

Here is the song of an August morning
With the birds full of gaiety singing
The lush leaves of green
And the brightest sun ever seen
This is the song of a wonderful morning
Played in the heart to the strings of a violin
Feel the air fill your lungs of warm air free
The sweetest morning you will ever see
This is the song of a good day to come
The one that keeps evading some
Here is the morning for which you had been waiting
Look at your loved one still smiling
This is the song of a moment in its time lost
Sweet to me but sweeter to most
And with the words of a poet in the shadows today
I wish you and your loved ones a more wonderful day
Laurence Ramos
11.44 am

Friday, 9 November 2012

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 4

Little pieces of paper
Marking the time better
Than memory could
Or willingness would.
Blessing from a receipt
Who else but me would admit?
No sleep when words are around
To the tempo of music those are bound
One time in my history
Recorded most accordingly.

Laurence Ramos

4.34 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 3

Words of life gone by
Never back to explain why
Lingering over moments
Time honored homely scents
Yet in the warm heart
Their playbacks start
Smile survivor for you live
So one day in life again you shall believe

Laurence Ramos

4.26 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 2

Could fate have known truly
Of the roses she could see
And the scent gently on her clothes
The relaxing effect of the pause?

Night, former enemy of mine
By your silence you inspire
Words to form each coming line
Like wood fuels a burning fire.

Day shall come eventually
From words she will quite humbly
Retire and resume her day
In her most ordinary way.

Laurence Ramos
3.56 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 1

Night so sweetly dark
Lit by the soft distant light
Small things often leave the deepest mark
Burning the soul with all its might

Silence broken by noises so soft
Low tones, soft breaths, all in the lateness
Memories made of perfect craft
Life rolling along its gentle sweetness

And time flies by slowly
Still the distant light shines for the poetess
As the hours pass so gently
She writes out of sweet tenderness.

Laurence Ramos
3.51 am

Monday, 5 November 2012


Easily do they forget what lurks in your mind
The thoughts lingering most unkind
But quickly they remember
When they in life suffer….

Easily cast aside you are when you are in need
You can try to reach them, you can bleed
They look elsewhere fed up with you
Those are the ones I called friends true…

No need for them where I find myself now
I fall, I cry, to the sad memories I sadly bow
No need for words, no needs for anything
But to me nothing you need to be telling….

I will not leave quickly out of your lives,
I will hang around like a bee near the hive
You all had from me my undivided attention
Now you get from me a little word of caution…

No kids, no life to unfold will I keep in my thoughts,
You, them, everything can rock along in the boat
While I sail the rough waters of my memory
You will not have a friend all that happy.

For what reason I didn’t crack this time I do not know
But I will not hold on for long though
The silence is bothersome to me
And more of it I wish not to see….

We all have lives, mine is full of everything
I need a bit of peace but this is not happening
I need the stress to leave but it hangs on to me
Like a leech on the person I no longer wish to be….

I am tired, too tried to try
I don’t want to know, I don’t see why
Changes never make up for what was once lost
At a truly life long cost

No you cannot understand,
In my shoes you would need time to spend
And still however bitter the mood is today,
I wouldn’t want you to know this way…

So keep the silence going, it will eat me up slowly
Then of your friend little will remain suddenly
I fail to care if that affects you
I fail to see if any of my friendships ever were true…

Laurence Ramos
8.54 am